Looking Back

Ever since we had the little girl, life has been different for us. Well, that is an understatement, I reckon, as life has been one big rollercoaster.

It is no secret that Erin was not a good sleeper, which was probably why she was such an irritable infant. Of course, it was like a chain reaction on all of us, especially on my part, as I remember quite clearly that I did seem to have the postnatal blues for most of Erin's first six months of life. Never have I felt so much stress in my entire life! It was due to a combination of things -- not having enough breastmilk to feed the little girl, not getting enough sleep, and trying to keep Erin calm for most of the time. Gosh, the pressure was too much for me that I really had meltdowns every once in a while. No kidding!

In fact, when I look back at old photos when Erin was just a baby, I realise how much depression I was going through, because it really showed. I did not even bother to fix myself, get a great haircut or give myself acne treatment, which I know I truly deserve.

I am glad those days are over now. I can honestly say though that all our sacrifices have paid off, Erin has been delighting us to no end with her antics. There is light at the end of the tunnel after all.